Digitize your Business before it's too late

My name is FABIAN and I was on episode number #50. I was able to get clean. 22 months Sober as of today. Im here to share my life with you. I want to offer my support to anyone in need of a friend in searching for answers on how to get sober. Its not easy; I know it first hand. Im pretty active on the facebook Intervention page and I have been able to give guidance to a lot of people. Therefore I'm posting this blog so that we can talk and support each other. Its not easy, but it is possible to achieve a better life. My life was a mess. True chaos. Not to mention I managed to lose it all. Why wait to hit rock bottom like I did. An addict in despair only hurts himself further by not reaching out. Suicidal thoughts and all of those resentments will drive you crazy. The guilt alone is bad enough. Don't be afraid to ask. Try one day to be sober. If I can means you can too. Im no different than any of you. We are all mad. We all have family issues. We are all broke. So what. My app...

RECOVERY SUPPORT/ FABIAN - Venice, CA, United States, 90291 - AETV Community Blog post - Real Life. Drama.

       

I daydream about using some days. I sit there and ponder the obsession..Like a stalker would an ex-girlfriend. I call it Intimate Addicts. Its a secret sometimes, no one needs to know were taking that last hit. Or first hit. The times when we would hide, get all high and then walk out and try to put a straight face. One thing I'm slowly learning is that there are triggers everywhere. that's the bottom line...But in the end you're the only trigger. When you look at it, you're the only one that can make that trigger fire. Your gun is loaded and will always be loaded. But only you can fire, and upon the firing of that shot you're the only to face the consequences. Don't get me wrong it's said in theory. What I do is get onto soemthing else.Music, strong coffee, smoke a cigarette. and take a walk and think what if I did take a hit. what would really happen. Can I ? And then it comes back to your senses.. Over and over..meetings help too. helping another addict i...

What you're about to read is a very very private and intimate excerpt of my thoughts that I wrote years ago after finishing a series of paintings. I'm not really sure if I'm talking to myself. Or I was just tired. Part reality part fiction...here it goes..Enjoy.... " Just A Thought" I have come to terms that every day I find myself reevaluating my life. The ups and downs. As an artist, as a being; as a friend. A temporary conclusion that the struggles of trying to find myself have not succeeded. Instead I have found that the memories of my life have become a staple of my work. Maybe if I didn't try to re-evaluate my relationships I may be able to free myself of the crucial moment of insecurity. Paintings have become an understanding of the reason why I live today. Apparently the universe is guiding me somehow, cause God knows my direction has not worked for the past fifteen years or so. I do realize that I have treated my relationships with a sense of ownershi...

It will never be easy. It will never ever go away. Ar least that 's what Im slowly learning.I can honestly tell you that on a daily basis I' somehow reminded of my losses. There are so many. I lost track. What sometimes works for me is to look ahead and deal with just today. Things will get better. Don't try to reinvent the wheel, just make the decision that you can reach out for help. Try going to some 12 step meetings. They an be a boring at times but you will find answers. You're no the only one that has to face the turmoils thea lie deep beneath you. But we can provide support to one another, only because we know from experience how we each feel. It's tough believe me. But it does get a little better with time. I hope that maybe you can reach a better undertsanding of this mess. YOu're more than welcome to reach out to me anytime. I did not do this alone by will power alone. Have a blessed day. Fabian

My name is FABIAN and I was on episode number #50. I was able to get clean. 22 months Sober as of today. Im here to share my life with you. I want to offer my support to anyone in need of a friend in searching for answers on how to get sober. Its not easy; I know it first hand. Im pretty active on the facebook Intervention page and I have been able to give guidance to a lot of people. Therefore I'm posting this blog so that we can talk and support each other. Its not easy, but it is possible to achieve a better life. My life was a mess. True chaos. Not to mention I managed to lose it all. Why wait to hit rock bottom like I did. An addict in despair only hurts himself further by not reaching out. Suicidal thoughts and all of those resentments will drive you crazy. The guilt alone is bad enough. Don't be afraid to ask. Try one day to be sober. If I can means you can too. Im no different than any of you. We are all mad. We all have family issues. We are all broke. So what. My app...

Currently painting a new series and writing a non-fiction novel: A fearless story of love, heartbreak, lust, deceit, forgiveness and everything else you find sneaking up on you while recovering from addiction. It will take you on a journey to the sleaziest and trendiest bars in Hollywood the City of Angels. The mecca for sex, drugs, and rocknroller lifestyles. An unplugged story, of drugs, art, and music. Eventually, the challenging demands of the entertainment business leads to the demise of a self made artist and entertainment entrepreneur. After an Intervention on a reality TV cable show he realizes he has lost it all, hits rock bottom as they say. He dissuades himself from suicide, takes matters on his own hands and decides to fight back his addiction. He now faces his biggest challenge ever; sobriety. The story takes a twisted turn taking you through a wild ride before and after his Intervention. Painting and photography becomes his only outlet. His art takes a cathartic form of e...